For the first time in a long time

It has been a very successful rollerhockey season for me.  Both my teams qualified for playoffs.  Now, I find myself in familiar territory.  My teams are going to show up and we will have our chance to win a championship.  Unlike seasons past, where my teams were outgunned or short players, this seems to be a situation where all the stars are aligned.  My players are showing, and they are competitive.  The big question is, can I deliver in the clutch like I used to be able to.

I remember a time when I was counted on to be the steady player.  Today, for the first time in a long time, I am nervous.  As hard as I try to shake it, I feel like karma is going to bite me in the ass in the playoffs.  It really is a dreadful thing to think.  There are two types of players in this world, those that keep their composure and head in the game and win championships, and those that do not.  In the past, I have had problems like this.  Now I have to shake the negative and focus on the positive.

One major positive is that my undefeated team has found a way to win in every situation.  Down in the 3rd period?  They come back to win.  Playing well in OT.  They find a way to get it done and with balanced scoring.  I have played well enough to win, but not dominating the league.  I have come through when it mattered, but I have also had my share of bad games.  Yet, my team always finds a way to make it happen.

One of the downsides is that the league has been very competitive.  We have won by just a goal against the top teams in the league, and they will be gunning for me this time around.  After not playing well in playoffs the last few seasons, I have a lot to prove coming into this playoff series.

To quote Harry Vardon….

“To play well you must feel tranquil and at peace. I have never been troubled by nerves in golf because I felt I had nothing to lose and everything to gain.”

I have to get this kind of mentality back.  I must forget about the dread and concentrate on the good that will come about tomorrow.  Win or lose, it will be fun tomorrow.  It will be competitive.  When the sun sets and the day is over, I will be drinking with my friends at the local pub and talking about how much fun we had.  Yes, it will be a great day to play hockey.  I really have nothing to lose.  Its rec league hockey.  Not the stanley cup finals.  I have everything to gain, including my confidence to do well as I get older.

Now for some much needed sleep before the day starts tomorrow.