I feel that this Youtube video is a large reflection upon me playing goal. I have always had a tendency to struggle in net. At the same time, after I get knocked down, the key is to get back up and keep moving forward. After a horrible playoffs last season where I didn’t win a game, its my job to right the ship and get better.
I felt that all the pieces were in place for me to win a championship last season. It just didn’t happen for a variety of reasons. I felt bad because of my performance, but it wasn’t all performance based. My teams didn’t have the firepower, or the skill, or the manpower to compete in those games. Sure, I could have played a bit better, and I do expect to play better next time around.
My Marketlab team is done for good, but I am on another couple teams this coming season. Our beginner team will compete, but it won’t be a stellar team. Our intermediate team will compete quite well in the division, but there will be stiff competition from many other teams.
I am going to enjoy this weekend. I am going to rest and recharge for another fun hockey season.
As Lewis Black has said, anticipation is better than the actual moment itself. Well, to me, anticipating playing a hockey game has been a reflection of this. Before every game, I know its going to be a good game. I may not feel the best, and I may not be motivated to do well for various reasons, but I know that its going to be a good game. Playoffs have always been a little different. I have always wanted to do well in playoffs and I have had many fun playoff games where I have done well. On the flip side, when I have done poorly, I tended to kick myself a little too hard (and sometimes not hard enough).
After an unprecedented run of success, I promised myself I would never complain about success in playoffs again. About 5 months ago, I went from on the brink and not playing anymore due to my knees to a full season of pain free hockey. Three months after the procedure, I am a new player. I embraced a new attitude when playing hockey. I started playing with friends have never played with before. I have enjoyed hockey more this season than I have in a long time.
I have had a measure of success as well. Marketlab placed first in the division. Who Cares placed 3rd in the division. Both teams earned playoff games and I am very happy about that. No matter what happens on Saturday, I am going to sleep tomorrow night with a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment.
After playing that big game with Marketlab on Thursday last week, I haven’t played another game since. Missed my game on Tuesday because I was working late, but maybe that is a blessing in disguise. My body has had a chance to heal up quite a bit in the last week. At the time time, my desire to play hockey has been rekindled a bit.
Today I was hanging clothes in my closet and came across my hockey jerseys. Some of them like my Chris Kunitz signed jersey brought back a lot of memories. So did my Grand Rapids All Stars jersey. Playing against those ex Red Wings players was in fact the opportunity of a lifetime. Then I came across a yellow mesh jersey and I remembered the first team I ever played on, the Killer Bees. I don’t remember the captain anymore, but I will never forget that name or some of the teammates I played with. Some of them are still playing today. Others I haven’t seen since I left that outdoor roller rink.
I guess a little time away is a good thing every now and again. It allows me to reflect on what has happened, is happening, and what is coming down the road. It also has allowed me to recharge my batteries and get ready for the most important 2 weeks leading up to the playoffs in a few weeks.
This playoff run I am going on now is quite special. It will be my last time suiting up for Marketlab. My last time suiting up in the top division. My last chance to cement myself as a champion in the top division. To go out on top really would make things right in my world. The key will be delivering on that. Of course, so much depends on my team and who shows up for these important games including playoffs. Right now, my mind is on finishing the season strong.
Gotta sleep. So much to do tomorrow.