I used to be under the impression that getting old was not really a bad thing. After all, you learn from your mistakes, get wiser, and just the overall quality of life really gets better because you are in a good place. My family, friends, and job make getting older a very good thing.
At the same time though, hockey is a sport that doesn’t benefit the old. I am just not as quick as I used to be. I want so badly to be able to compete, but it is now starting to dawn on me that my time playing hockey is going to run out eventually. What is going to happen when I can no longer play competitively? Will my desire to play the game go downhill fast? What am I going to fill my time with when I can no longer play?
On Tuesday, the Stick Heads got beat by the lowly house team. I played an ok game, but I feel I should have had a couple of those goals in a 5-3 loss. Then, tonight I played ice hockey in a 6-2 loss that really wasn’t totally my fault but I feel I should have played better. While I am not struggling, it just makes me realize that my skills are in fact on the downhill ride. It is very upsetting to come to that realization, but its something I have to come to terms with sooner or later.
At the beginning of the year, I set the goal for 25 championships and 1 ice hockey championship for this year. While I don’t know if I will be successful this year or not for these goals, one thing is perfectly clear. I have to start coming to the realization that I am not going to be able to compete forever and I have to come up with a transition plan for the next stage of my life. It could be reffing. It could be coaching. It will be something involving hockey.