A long time coming

I took a break from my journal for a while.  Sometimes, you need to take a step back and ask yourself, what are you trying to accomplish.  I have been trying to not only add in my point of view on the hockey that I play, but add in things that are going on in my life.  A few weeks ago, I was totally unmotivated to update this journal.  Now, I have found my way back here to hopefully start things up again.

Hockey has been very good to me as of late.  My Bulldogs team is tied for second in the division.  I won my ice hockey league championship game a few weeks ago.  That was a first for me.  Lastly, I have 7 assists in 4 games with Vintage Painting as a forward.  Hopefully I will get a few more points tonight.

I have been spending a lot of time setting up this rec league ice hockey game at Van Andel Arena on April 16th.  I have the players, and most of them have paid up on time.  I am still collecting money though and getting the group together that is going to come watch us play.  I will be thankful when this is done, but I really am happy it is all coming together.

Lastly, I wanted to chime in about Terri Schiavo.  I am glad she has passed away.  This is something that should have happened 10 years ago when both sides realized she was brain dead.  I found a link that expresses how I feel for the most part on this matter.


I will let that do the talking.

Two solid games

With Rollerhockey off this week, I played two very solid games of ice hockey on Tuesday and Wesdnesday.  I lost my first game on Tuesday night by a 2-1 score, but won my game on Wednesday by a 4-2 score.  Both games I came up with some very good saves.  Especially last night.  My team only had 7 skaters, we got a 4-1 lead and I played very well.

On the bad side, both games I let in one bad goal each time.  The game I lost 2-1, the game winner was a shot that went in off my back from behind the net.  When you get burned by a goal like that, it just is fustrating.  Especially after all the good saves I had.  The game last night, I let in a shorthanded shot that sneaked just under my pad and slowly slid across the goal line.  That puck did have eyes on that shot.

As for rollerhockey, I had a pretty good practice on Tuesday as well.  Let in some goals I should have stopped, but I played ok.  I really can’t say anything more about it other than the games are entirely different from ice hockey.  It is an adjustment, but I love the game of rollerhockey all the same.

The next 4 days I am going to rest and get ready for the rest.

Murder One

I just went through all 23 episodes of Murder One on DVD.  I remember watching this back in 1995 when I was in college.  It was easily the most compelling courtroom drama I have ever seen.  There were twists and turns through the whole series.

When I was in college at that time, I didn’t get a chance to see every one of these episodes.  I probably missed about 1/4 of them.  This was the one show I still remembered and wanted to catch again.  They did show some of this show on A&E, but not since I had a Tivo.  When this DVD set came out, I rented it through Netflix and took the time to watch a couple episodes a day.  It was worth it.

Now, I want to get caught up on 24.  I am on Season 2 right now, but only a couple episodes in.


There are a lot of things on my mind.  Some more bad than good so I will just start talking and see where this leads to.

First off, I am somewhat displeased with my performance in net.  I know I have said it before, but I will say it again, I am capable of so much better.  However, I am getting a series of just horrible bounces.  Add a weak goal or two in the mix and it just doesn’t seem to be getting any better.  Last night, I lost my first rollerhockey game by a 7-3 score, then I won my ice hockey game, but not before I got lit up by 7 goals.

It just seemed as if every bounce went against me last night.  I centered myself to the shot well, and came out to challenge the shooter, but the shot would go off me and into the net.  Had another shot that hit the glass behind me, then went off my back and went in.  Thats not saying I didn’t let in a weak goal or two in my last two games either.

Seems that all of my teams that I am on this session are in flux and I have no idea what is going to happen in April.  I am not considered a top end goalie, nor have I ever been considered to be that.  However, I have a feeling this is all going to catch up with me soon.  What level will I be playing at next season?  Who will I be playing with?

I just have this bad feeling deep down that things aren’t going my way right now and it is going to get worse.


After having an opportunity to sleep on things last night, and trust me it was a little difficult to get to sleep without thinking of it, I am feeling better today.  Still a little down on myself, even though I am trying hard to get back on the horse.  Some points to consider.

1.  I wasn’t on my game last night.  Plain and simple fact.  I don’t know if it was a lack of focus, or something else.  I just don’t know how to explain it.

2.  That said, I played well enough to hold that team to 3 goals.  Two of which weren’t my fault.  The second goal of the game was a low shot that hit the far post and went in.  Based on the same shot I let in last week that was similar to this one, I need to work better on my angles.

3.  In any tight game, the stops a goaltender makes are amplified.  Just like last week, with the game tied at 3, I held my ground and came up with some good stops.  Last night, I made some saves, but I wasn’t under relentless pressure.  To be honest, I felt like I had the same misfortune as the Ferris State goaltender on Friday night last week.  At one point, he had 11 shots on him and 4 goals against.  That is a tough pill to swallow.

4.  I have to give credit to our defense.  This team we played last night didn’t have superstar players, but we held our ground.  Our offense played pretty well too.  We just ran into a hot goalie and it stiffled us.

The captain is right.  We can’t get down on ourselves.  We have a off week next week, but are going to practice on Tuesday.  We have 6 games after that, and are still very much alive for a playoff run.  I have every confidence we will get that far.  Just getting in is half the battle, but it will give us a legit shot at the title.  That is my goal.

Confidence is NOT high

My last two Bulldogs games have not been my best. In these tight games, I just haven’t been on top of my game. Last week, I struggled on a couple shots that I should have stopped. Although, I did end the game on a good note and made key saves when I needed to. Tonight, I just played sub-par. I never really got into a rythym and struggled the stop the puck. Lastly, my confidence was low after that game.

I have to start rebuilding my level of confidence.