There is a part of me that is tearing up inside.
As much as I want to try to forget about the Stick Heads, it is hard not to put them off entirely. The whole situation still stings like it happened just yesterday. Today, I still feel empty. This was all brought on by me looking at the scores and seeing the Stick Heads winning last night. Lets face it, they have a successful team. Why they ditched me is still an unknown for me at this point. The pain is still as real as it was a few weeks ago.
Maybe I am more bitter than anything.
My Bulldogs started off in Copper the same way we ended our playoff run, with a loss. This one came to the defending champion Reforms to the tune of a 7-4 loss. I thought my team performed well considering the circumstances. Some of these guys haven’t played copper before, and it was a big change for them after playing in a lower division. The ones who have played in the upper divisions knew what was in store obviously. Our chemistry was all out of whack compared to last session. We added a lot of new, but experienced, people It is going to take some time for this team to come into their own. I believe the Bulldogs have a team that has potential. The only question is, will we come into our own in time to make a playoff run.
As for my performance, I am not happy. I am capable of playing so much better than the way I did tonight. I feel I played an average game, and on a team still finding its legs, that isn’t going to help. I need to perform a notch higher as my team finds its chemistry and footing in this league. I really don’t think I let the team down as much as I just didn’t play a solid game that is up to my standards. For instance, the goaltender for the other team really stepped it up and made some key saves. I made decent saves when I needed to, but just about every quality scoring chance they had they capitalized on. Then again, part of the problem could be that I haven’t played an organized game of hockey in about 2 weeks.
Oh well, now I get to concentrate on my game on Tuesday night. No time to dwell on the should haves. Gotta concentrate on the next save.