My mood says it all

It has been a while since I took the time to write in this journal. It hasn’t been because I have had a loss of thoughts or ideas. It has mainly been because I haven’t dedicated the time to do it. Something I have regretted. What fustrates me is the fact that it took a rather fustrating loss last night to motivate me to write in my journal.

The Stick Heads are really having a hard time in Copper this session. Losing our key players and now we have little intersquad squabbles that are starting to grate on everyone. Some members are looking to go after this session. Others want to stay. I am just trying to play the best hockey I can. Last night, we had a 5-2 lead half way through the game, and lost 7-6 at the end of the game. Seems we had a strong start, and then our defense fizzled. I really don’t know of any of those goals were my fault, but I still have this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. Not because we lost, but the way we lost and the attitudes of both teams during and after the game.

I have higher expectations out of this team and myself. The team scuffles MAY be affecting my play in some way. Knowing this team may or may not be together next session makes me think about the future a little.